The Oldest

I always thought I wanted a girl first, because... Well, because they're cute and I really just want to get the girl out of the way! Plus, I've really got a system down with these cute baby hairbows I make and as one of hubby's aunt's says "Now you're gotta make a baby to put in them!" SO TRUE!... But it would have to be a girl, or else that would just be weird.

So I have it all planned out to have a girl right? You probably saw my rituals post about things I'm going to do to have a girl. Well, I may be changing my mind. See...Boyz II Men came to town and were playing all of their old school love songs. I missed the concert but my news station covered it. It got us all pulling up the songs on Youtube and singing along... Well when we got to this one song called "A Song for Mama" I got all teary eyed and decided I want a boy (love how I just decide what I'm going to have, like I have a choice in the matter?).

So it got me thinking about the months we'll have to do it to have a boy and the stuff I'll have to eat.. positions, etc. Plus, hubby wants a boy (go figures right?) and I wouldn't mind having a momma's boy.

So I was all set to have a boy...but then I got to thinking... The oldest child, would I rather it be a boy or girl? Hubby and I are both the oldest and I get a lot with my siblings a lot better than he does... He gets a long with them, it's just that he doesn't COMMUNICATE with them at all often. I Tweeted the question "what do you think is better for a first child, boy or girl?" and most peopel said girl... For the same reasons. So now I think I'm back to square one.

Obviously I'll be happy with either. I've come a long way... I'm pretty much torn 55/45 (girl)right now with what I'd like, but when we first got married I was worried I wouldn't like my son if he came out first... Harsh right? I don't feel that way anymore. I'll be happy with a healthy baby but I'm going to "experiment" for a girl... I have a 50% chance (actually I think it's 49%) naturally, but I'll see if I can beat the odds.

Sharon asked me if I had a gut feeling what I'd have one way or the other... Here's what I think (as of now pre-conception) I think it's going to be a BOY!! Why? Because it would be ironic and my life is ironic. Oh, and because I've been having lots of dreams about a baby boy lately... I think he's ready to come down. I use to dream about a girl all the time... What do you think happneed to her? Hmm... We'll see!